On January 13, 2018, at 3 pm central my Mom lost her fight with cancer.I began writing a long explanation, of things that happened up to that day but had to stop. It still hurts way to much. I have been in a dark cloud. I have a wonderful husband and best friend who have been watching over me diligently. At first, I was not sleeping and barely eating. I still am not sleeping through the night, and falling asleep is still very much a challenge. I stopped working,I stopped crafting. Everything has stopped.My husband has been struggling to get me out of bed. The sadness is to great some days. I never understand when acquaintances tried to explain the devastation from losing their Moms. I understand now. It is almost indescribable. My Mom and I were very artsy people. We loved music. We loved creating. Painting, crafting, It is what made us happy, its what brought us closer. It's something we shared. We shared a life full of color, music an